If there is one thing that the last couple of months has taught me, it's that bitterness & grudges are unhealthy, unattractive & they do absolutely naff all for you. so after 3 months of torturing myself, a couple of days ago I finally plucked up the courage to message my old uplines at Younique & clear the air with them & it has definitely made me feel better, having them accept my apology has done wonders & it has also made that new path a lot easier to walk when it comes to moving on. now I feel as though I can finally breathe again, & finally be happy in my new venture.
I can't explain how much more positive it has helped me to feel already, in just a few days. Despite everything else that I have going on in my life (constant pain being the worst) I have kept going, & not let depression, low moods & a certain vile person bring me down. (more on that at a later date) I am actually so proud of myself.
I am loving being with Acti-Labs, I am in a great team with the most supportive ladies & upline, who have now become really good friends, its so different to Younique, & I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just different, more my pace! I am not going to lie though, I really wasn't sure about Acti at first, because I adored Younique so much, that it felt like a bit of a rebound, but I have had my eyes opened so much over the last few months that I have now finally realized that everything happens for a reason, & me being the bigger person & walking away from Younique when I did, was the best thing that I could have ever done, for myself, not for anyone else. FOR ME. I could have easily stayed with Younique & carried on trying to run my business, but I didn't, don't get me wrong, compliance tried to get me to stay, I actually got a really nice person when I told them I was leaving, he was a young man, (i'm not allowed to give his name) & he spent 3 days talking to me, trying to get me to stay with Younque because of how far I had come, he didn't want me to throw it away & then regret it, which I thought was really nice, but I had to think of myself, I could feel my mood slipping towards that slippery downward slope, & I didn't want to lose control, I have been there before & it's not a nice place to be, so instead of giving in & letting that happen like I have time & time again, I stopped it from happening by removing myself from the situation & therefore leaving Younique! & as much as it broke me at the time, I know now, it was by far the right thing to do, if it ever came to my mental health over doing Younique, my mental health wins every time. I never for a second realized how much pressure it was putting on me, with my health deteriorating too, it was all too much!
I have recently only just gotten back to doing my network marketing properly, yes I signed up to Acti-Labs back in May, but I then went through a really rough patch with my health, & ended up in & out of hospital, my left side is semi-paralyzed & knackered & I am currently awaiting to see a spinal surgeon in September, so needless to say my head hasnt exactly been in it so to speak, but now that I know whats going on with my health - or rather, I know whats in the planning, I feel like I can take the reins with my business again!
that's the best thing about Acti-Labs, I signed up virtually which meant ZERO TARGETS so I could disappear off the radar for a little while whilst I put my health first, & because I did, I am ready to rock again now. I am actually really proud of myself & how I have dealt with the last few months, I haven't once lost control & for me that is HUGE! only a few years ago, shit like this would of had me turning into an absolute monster, letting everything get to me & pushing those away that I needed. so I guess on that one, I do have Younique to thank, for making me realize that although most days I don't feel it with everything that's going on, I AM A STRONG PERSON!! & if I put my mind to it, I can do whatever the hell I want with my life & my choices & because of that, I am really proud of how far I have come!
from here it is definitely onwards & upwards! what happened with Younique is now the past & that is where it should stay, that's why it's called the past, there is no point dwelling on stuff that can't ever be changed, what happened, happened, & that's that. I just hope that one day, the people I hurt, can forgive me, because I am not a vicious horrible person, I am just a woman who has way too much going on in her life & doesn't always know how to deal with it "appropriately" so for that, too all the people I hurt, I am sorry.
I just want to be happy, get my shitty arse health somewhat stable & concentrate on my new adventure with Acti-Labs! it's a new chapter from here for me, & I am super excited. :)